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Unclenching my hands

Unclenching my hands

To commemorate the first day of Lent 2018 here is a sneak peek from my book that will hopefully encourage us all to prepare for this Lenten season. 

For each Lenten season I try to come up with a practice or activity that will awaken my consciousness and remind me to be mindful of the Holy Spirit.  One year I decided to make an effort to turn my palms right side up and unclench my hands.  I did this daily to demonstrate to God that I was present and available, centred on him and open to his will.

To the average person this might be a simple task that probably takes little thought and minimal concentration.  In my case, since I have Cerebral Palsy, I actually need to concentrate to get my hands right side up and wait for my fingers to unbend.  This task could take a few tries but eventually my brain sends the message to the right body part.

Unclenching my hands during Lent had a profound effect on me.  I felt vulnerable, somewhat exposed and less comfortable in my body movements.  It was uncomfortable in the moment but also so freeing. In a way I was letting go of my desire to be in control – to be independent. This allowed God to be present and more of a partner.

The second profound revelation for me was how reserved my spirit had become. Living on a tight budget has made me frugal with spending.  I look for ways to save, find the cheapest price or wait for a sale.  I’m in the mindset of being cautious, deciding what I need and what can wait.  From a financial perspective this is necessary and wise. However through my Lenten practice I realized my mindset of frugality had transcended in other areas of my life especially my faith.

In the beginning I was so distraught by this realization but also so appreciative of the awakening and the opportunity to change and redirect my mindset.  Even though I still need to be frugal financially, my faith and love for God is free and unrestricted.

I will continue to unclench my hands during Lent and even afterwards not expecting anything but allowing God the opportunity to take my hands anytime he wishes to.

…“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9,10

Dear Father in Heaven,

Thank you for the practice of Lent, a tradition that I savour every year. For me it’s like an escape from the daily grind of life – a time to be less self-absorbed and put your Holy Spirit more in the driver’s seat. As you are aware every year I think of a practice that will help me be more open and conscientious of listening to your voice. I thank you for accepting my small gesture and masterfully revealing your wisdom and insight in ways that are so impactful to my mind and heart. May I keep reminding myself that you are my co-pilot in life and whenever you’re in the driver’s seat allow me to be as gracious as you are.  Although the journey may be turbulent at times, you oh Lord, take me to the required destination always arriving at the right time.

Amen

Beyond Oppression – Lenten prayer 2017

Beyond Oppression – Lenten prayer 2017

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles.  And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.  For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Hebrews 12:1-3

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Beyond Oppression – Lenten prayer 2017

I Can’t Imagine – Lenten Prayer 2017

Dear Father in Heaven,

This past week has been somewhat physically challenging with the chronic muscle pain in my arm and the muscle tightness in my upper back.  Although the discomfort is tolerable I’m becoming a bit weary.  However the timing of all this seems rather fitting as I tried to imagine what Jesus went through.  

In no way am I comparing, but it has made me more empathetic trying to imagine all the physical and emotional realities that occurred.  I can’t imagine what it’s like to anticipate your execution.  I can’t imagine foretelling and then being betrayed by a disciple who is a brother to you.  I can’t imagine the agony of being persecuted, stoned and nailed to a cross.  I can’t imagine having the foresight and the grace in being obedient to our heavenly Father, for the sake of humanity, to give a chance of eternal life and a life of unconditional love and grace.  

The reality is hard to picture.  We can read about your story, watch movies, interpret the story, listen to people speak and try to disseminate bits of wisdom and insight that help make your story more tangible.  

The truth is that I will always grapple with remanence of your story.  I think that the beauty of your story is too much for the human mind to completely digest.  It requires faith and belief that it’s okay to not comprehensively know but to accept without a doubt that it’s true.  

In your Holy Name

Beyond Oppression – Lenten prayer 2017

Invitation of Grace – Lenten Prayer

Sweet Jesus, you rock my world.  You did the unimaginable.  Even thinking about what you went through before your crucifixion, it’s beyond my human comprehension.  Yes, I can understand the facts, know it by heart, but to try to remotely empathize with the emotional and physical aspects of what you went through is mind rattling.  

To be complacent of your story is an injustice, a travesty.  It would be so easy to fall into that spectrum of objectivity, lacking emotion, feeling numb or reserved.  There is a sense of guilt and unworthiness that can creep up into my stomach and up my chest.  So much that the automatic response is to distract my attention to something else, preferably pleasing and less harsh.  

In these times I forget to inhale and welcome your grace, to remind myself that I’m not alone in this journey, that you invite my insecurities, my dumbfoundedness and my fears into the mix.  Let me resend your grace by being gracious to myself, not dwelling on my own iniquities but accepting where I’m at and continuing to grapple with the severity of your sacrifice.

Jesus, I wish I could write a love song to express my deep devotion and gratitude.  Instead may my daily actions reflect a melody that is equally beautiful to your ears.

In your holy name,

Amen  

Beyond Oppression – Lenten prayer 2017

Walk me through your son’s story

Dear Father in Heaven, there are a few pictures in my photo album that I would like to tear up, as I think I look awful or some photos ignite a negative reaction in me.  I confess that I have a similar reaction to your holy word as there are some stories I’d like to rip out.  They often cause me heartache in some form, whether it’s anger, guilt, deep sorrow or that they’re beyond my scope of comprehension.  I tend to read them very quickly and not take the quest for deeper understanding and knowledge.  Forgive me Lord, for my lack of patience and for not grappling with my own ignorance.   

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Let Us Value Lent

This past Wednesday was the first day of lent. 

Just out of curiosity I searched both Facebook and Twitter to check how many posts there were about lent.  I was a bit disheartened to see there were very few.  Although lent is a very personal journey, the practice of this sacred tradition should be more acknowledged and encouraged.  It’s so easy to be complacent, nonchalant; another year, another lent, but when we do that we rob ourselves, our families and our church communities from fully receiving God’s inheritance. read more…

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