Dear Father in heaven,
Although my love and devotion to you remains strong I feel discouraged with myself. Lately when I write something or try to express what’s on my heart, self doubt creeps up and I second guess myself. My mind is ridiculed by past rejections or times when I’ve been ignored or alienated.
In my head I believe I should be able to overcome this, to work through it and not let the fear prevent me. Is it not enough for me to remain true to you? Why am I so afraid of what other people think? It’s not like I’m being completely disrespectful.
Forgive me for my incessant need to be included on a human level. May I stop being obsessive about what others might think. May I trust the leading of your Spirit and allow the past negativity to serve as a reminder to always be conscientious of others and especially of your Holy Spirit.
Reconcile my soul with your Spirit so I can be your vessel. Fill my soul with your love. Fill my mind with your wisdom. May I be a true reflection of your Holy Spirit in my writing and in my daily life. Put me in a place where I can thrive and be more free to be your light.